[Rin, no. Tyki Mikk is not for you to fight? it would end bad?

but Allen doesn't stop the contact, he just grips onto Rin's hand.]

I... can't. I can't. Being so selfish... is how I made Mana into an akuma. Being like this--I try not to because I'd just. Hurt someone. In the end.

[thaaat last part doesn't have much to do with the whole akuma thing. it's older. far more traumatic in its own way, feeding into everything else. but he also can't talk about it. couldn't possibly approach is closer than he's getting here.

not wrong in assuming he has "trouble" with it.]